If I Needed to Become a River

I, always thought I’m too much that

not everyone can withstand me and

just like a fire,

all I know is how to burn

Lately, I feel I like I have to become

bigger than

the Great Chicago fire, to make up for all your love

I-

could stretch out to few infernos

but

Sometimes, I feel like-

you are asking me to flow

and I am no river you know

I have always been a fire

I either burn or glow

if I could expand myself enough for

me to create a fire of waves

be an ocean full of flames

would I be enough?
Because-

lately, you are growing so fast and wide

I am no longer sure if

if I can stretch myself further

for us to be together 

after all, I’m just a fire

and I can only do so much until

my flame starts getting weaker

and my heart gets cold..

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The First Love Letter

They say love outlives us all…



My friend told me

I haven’t written in awhile

but that was only because

I thought-

spending time with you was

the exact poem I’ve been waiting to

write

all my life

only difference is, I didn’t write it with a pen

I lived it-

With you.
Tonight, I write to you

for the last time ’cause

things happen

Relationship sometimes

do fall apart

I can only love you-

so much but,

I can’t make you love me

enough to choose me everyday

But I’d choose you, you know?

Always!



But love also means letting go

I want to hold on ’till it outlives me

though your happiness is not-

in the street of my arms.

It’s not-

in the home that is my heart,

It’s not-

with the human called

me.

It is not-

at least not, anymore.

But I was and still am

in love.



They said love outlives us all

I hope my love for you really outlives me

because when it comes to you,

forever could never be

long enough…
I’ll always love you…



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Your Beauty

You marry words like couples in love
that I, for the life of me
wouldn’t know how to meet
much more- connect

You make me feel foreign-
on my own heart
fueling my adrenaline
rushing at your presence

Tell me what makes you, you?
I vow to preserve the only beauty
that makes me believe in the reality
of loving and being loved to infinity…

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List of Things I Will Never Do for You

When you saw my scars you said it was

almost artistic. You said I could be a whale

of a creative artist. I secretly smiled.

See, no one ever saw my pain and gave me words

and looks that didn’t land as self pity on my end.

Suddenly three lifetimes have passed and

I’m still that girl running free on the memories

we shared together- I grew stronger.

When I gaze upon your perfected face I-

discovered reasons to love myself and know

that someone, just one, religiously believes in me

like a believer to a god without questions or doubts

he has faith in me.

I will never unlove you
I will never unlove you
I could never unlove you

This is the thing I will never do for you multiplied by the power of three…

Baby, I will never unlove you.

It was never an option. Loving you has always been

the default setting, the first time I

breathed your love in mine…

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