April 15th

something out of nothing

“This makes me jealous!”
a fellow blurted
a smirk grew upon my face
as I reminisce those dainty days

Is- this love sufficient
to make a man envious
decoding a spilled ink
I poured out for you?

Is- living my life
to be summed up by you
sheltering covenants made- enough
to show my devotion on you?

Because sometimes, goodness sometimes
I wish you knew
I’d make something out of nothing
if it meant, just to be with you…

©Bluesirie 201304


On Leaving

Allow me some ramblings…the photo may not be as breath – taking as some people would look at it to be…

Sometime ago, I think I’ve lost one of my precious friend. And I know I am so attached to le friend so it was a bit hard- to write and explore poetry or, to take my camera and be inspired to the wondrous beauty waiting for me to capture and make physical…it was like I’m losing everything, when in fact I’m just losing my best friend. And one person could never mean the world to me, because I would be unfair to myself. Yes, the friendship that when I talk about and explicate to you what we’ve been through, I would vomit cheese on my keyboard. That kind of friendship, and y’all gonna puke reading it, so I’m saving you the trouble of not hearing it.

I was sitting one day, and I realized- there were astounding beauties that only last for a series of seconds, like the golden hour. And you knew you’ve never seen such breath-taking beauty but then you could leave it. I’ve seen few of the ravishing beauty of nature, like one of the 2012’s 7 wonders of the world but, as annihilating as the aesthetic of it gets and is, i have to leave it. That’s when I realized, I could leave anything. It sounds so terrible, but the truth is, impermanence is the way of the world. And it doesn’t mean I don’t love these people, as horrible as this may sound, I learned to love myself first and with full confidence,and I honestly think more than anything, it is blessing in itself. To realized, that however beautiful and ravishing anything in this world is, I could leave it- is one of the most enlightening moment of my life…because I never lose anything, I carry it within my heart…