If i may have to be selfish

“It’s just hard to see a friend hurt this much. Especially when you can’t do anything except “be there”. I want to make him stop hurting, but I can’t.”
–The Perks of Being a Wallflower

I know that I am not starving
and I could consider myself-
Because people will tell me;
“meanwhile in Africa..” and I’ll have to live grateful hearing that

-and it’s not just in Africa

But what if you’re hurt?
Pain isn’t selective. It delivers when it needs to
-despite your status, gender or your skills

And people will tell you
About the moon and the stars
the flowers and the bees
and paint in your eyes the vivid colors- out there

They will tell you about the real friends you have
the quality of your chandelier
your assets and your koi fish in the pond

Or how even when they’re on the honor’s list
their parents didn’t want to attend the ceremony because-
they didn’t come on top of everybody in the class

-they will tell you how lucky you are and the beauty of the world we live in

But that doesn’t change the fact that you’re upset or hurt or in pain.
And even if others have it worse
You still have, what you have
But you would give up the colors for it to stop
Or the beauty around and live in black and white.

And you want them to stop

stop looking at the world out there
at the past, on others,
stop looking at themselves

-and look at you
and be there


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